With both hands around your hips.

I am so fucking pissed right now.
I'm pretty sure some of you'll know why.

 

_!_
Up yours motherfucker.

 

I conclude that God wants me to be a nun. 
I dont know how to react to this. 
Hurr hurr. 

Hello my lj lovers. 
Yes it's true i have abandoned you for tumblr. 
Sorrow. 

Life still is a mother fucking mystery to me and i doubt i'm gonna figure it out anytime soon.
I must say though, i'm quite alright with that. 
:)

Thinking more than you know. 
 

Meet my new best friend,
My daiso teacup
Which i havent stopped drinking honey water from since yesterday. 
I kinda want to stay home all day just so i can read and drink tea from this cup. 
I am well aware of how crazy i am sounding
But really, 
How can you not love it? 
Hee. 
 

Goodbye wonderful internet and any other form of communication to the outside world. 
I am off to hide in malaysia for the next three days,
And make some relatives happy. 
Hopefully my head will make sense when i get back.
And i'll be ready for the torture that is school.

Last year this turned out to be quite the disaster. 
So i'm pretty much stuck in a rut,
As to whether to keep my hopes high for the opposite. 
Or not to hope at all. 

Chin up. 

 

 

Someone once told me that you can pick your moods in almost the same way you pick your clothes. So if today i told myself i'm going to pull on a Happy and slip into a pair of Patients i very well could. And should something go wrong somewhere along the way all i would have to do is tell myself 'Now, now, i'm wearing my Patients' and believe it or not i'd find the day going a whole lot better.

Of course, me being me, i never believed this theory. Finding the idea of wearing my moods absolutely impossible. Skeptical as i was i decided to try it out yesterday after realizing i was going nowhere with my anger and frustration. Guess what? It worked. Every time i felt myself lose my cool i'd tell myself 'Hey wait, you've got a nice pair of Patients on'. And the very idea would make me chuckle and i'd end up forgetting whatever the hell it was that annoyed me in the first place. And i can proudly say that yesterday went pretty damn alright. 


I will continue to think. 
And hope to God it this doesn't kill me.

 

Best sentona day ever. 
Spontaneous as it was for me and despite the foreboding rain clouds,
It all turned out pretty well. 
With sushi replacing subway (just this once), the usual chips and juice, a couple of cameras, a good book and my sketchbook i think it was really what the three of us needed. 
I declare that we should do it again within the next month? 
To ensure that school doesn't officially suck our souls. 


Lately i've been thinking.

 

We're getting higher everytime that we love.
A little closer to the things we fall back on
If you come over together willing,
We'll take over the world.
 

Tiny voices make it harder
Everybody will be let down.
 

 

Not worth it.

Finally a really good night. 
Woke up to the rain. 
Spent half an hour in bed taking pictures of the skyline. 
Had pumpkin for lunch. 
Am now sitting in the dark room with my music. 
Contemplating going out for coffee and a book. 
 

When you know exactly what is bothering you.
But you're just too fucking scared to come out and say it
Cause you know you're gonna end up looking like a wuss. 
Where do you find someone, something, anything that is gonna make you feel right
And for more than just a second. 


I wanna feel weightless, and that should be enough.
 

Those feelings swarmed in more unexpectedly than i had thought possible,
making me almost positive that they weren't my own to begin with. 
The air was undeniably heavier,
And i know for a fact i wasn't the only one who felt it. 
By the time the weight left and i could breathe again,
My heart was too rattled to think anything other than it was just a moment. 
And that if i knew any better i wouldn't question it further. 


 How lame would it be if i told you that;
Some thing is really missing in my life.
I just have no fucking clue what. 

Hi i've been watching like five million and one movies as of late. 
Pretty amusing. 
Cloudy with a chance of meatballs+Jessie=Stitches from laughing. 
Fucking weird show that made close to no sense but still made us crack up till our sides hurt. 

I think i've forgotten how to feel about life. 
Someone remind me please.
It's rather bland at the moment.

( Cause the picture was too small. )

 

 

I dont know why it's so fucking small.
Click on it to read it.

 

Happee picture spoilt mood. 
I think i hate my family. 
kbye.

Just woke up from a 20 fucking hour sleep. 
After have only two hours of sleep for six nights straight. 
And i'm still tired. 
Hurr hurr. 

Anyway the not sleeping and the crazy working and the completely neglecting the internet, snacks, my image and not to mention working like crazy for six long days was completely worth it. It was one fucking mad ass of a distraction meaning i completely forgot that the outside world existed and to be honest it was one of the best feelings i've ever experienced. Got a birthday thing done two days late [ :) ] after being scared shitless and then tripping in front of everyone. Thanks to everyone of you'll who made working the best thing that's happened this term break.

The crazy buggy rides, the arriving one hour early only to sit around and waste time, the drinking 8 bottles of water a day, the too hot or too cold warehouse of a business center, the catered meals that were not shit friendly, the really rich annoying people, the awesomely awesome oldschool glass drink bottles, the lame flimsy goodie bags, the endless amounts of plasters and every other thing i can't remember at this point in time. 

Ha there is just too much to say honesly. So here is where i stop to leave you'll remembering the insanity we went through. 
<3 
 

One year can do alot.
 

Teepsyness.